遗言 eurology, old and new.

- Eulogy -

Hello all ! The last time I wrote such a long and thoughtful text was during my wedding, so I hope I've addressed everyone properly and not left anyone out. 

This will be my final text to my friends,  families that I've loved in my life as well as my brothers and sisters I've met along the way. You guys were truly awesome and I truly wish you all well in everything that you've done and will do in the future. 

Let this photo be my blackwhite photo as this was the most meaningful period of my life. Learning to takecare of myself in a foreign country at a young age while finding my goals for my future despite its difficulties. Life was very kind to me. 

Know that I've enjoyed my lifetime knowing you all, it's been such a pleasure. But, this time I'll selfishly make a decision for myself and a hasten trip to go ahead first and I'm sorry it's in this way that I am able to inform you all. I just couldn't bear to watch any of my loved ones leave me first and ahead of me anymore and it's so painful just the thought of it, I am happier to think that I'm the first to be leaving first to make sure the roads ahead are smooth and clear. 

Goodbye all my seniors uncles and aunties, my cousins, as well as my lovely sister and 爸爸妈妈. 对不起, 谢谢你们这一辈子的呵护❤️

阿公阿嬷外婆，

你们的 Ahboy 先走一步，谢谢你们这辈子对我的照顾和爱, 你们辛苦一辈子养大了你们的子女们，才让我今天有那么疼我和爱我的叔叔们和姑姑们。我走的时候不痛, 不辛苦请不要伤心。

我内心非常开心也很感恩，能有你们当我的长辈是我这一辈子的幸福。阿公每次问我做工辛苦吗，阿嬷每次问我吃了吗，外婆每次告诉我有事有事直接说. Ahboy 爱你们。

(In English so the elders don't understand) 

Uncles and Aunties, 

I love you all so much, you guys taught me what is 团结就是力量 and band together by taking care of your parents, together. I'm blessed in my lifetime as a younger generation to witness all these efforts. I wish you all the best.

Cousins~ (English so elders don't understand) 

Guys, I got to go first liao and I'm sorry it's in this form but, my lifetime couldnt have greater fun having you all as my cousins, I love you all sibei much and so much more. I can't thank you all enough and I know I don't say it enough

To all my commercial diving colleagues and brothers,

 

I find that we work in a really weird industry, Commercial Diving. (SWEE SWEE BO CHAO CHWEE) Doesn't matter what's your background, or what you are going through currently, when it comes to fixing the bolts and nuts in sg waters, we are the ones you call upon as a community. 

Personally going through life and death experiences twice, needing to attend for search and rescue for missing diver that I used to worked with, I couldn't comprehend at all. People always say we earn alot as a commercial divers, but I always tell people this as I don't want to paint a beautiful picture. 

We 

Earn more than scholars, 

But we sleep like homeless,

Sometimes we eat like beggars, 

As much as we want, we don't always get to spend time at home with our loved ones. 

End of the day we just wanna bring food on the table no matter what, hoping that our loved ones will enjoy life better than we do. 

This time your diver 1 gonna leave bottom for good. 

"Sup, Diver leaving bottom" and I know you guys will understand. Thank you, for all your support and your kicks in my butt during my most difficult phase, you know who you are. My happiest moments daily is when we greet mornings to each other, and the simplest form of wishes "dive safe" to kick start the day, it's so precious and I love you all. 

Finally, for my family. 

妈妈，妳说的关关难过我们关关过

爸爸，有空回家

姐姐，吃了吗

这辈子有你们你真的好

I've had a great life, I love you all.

I wanna die, by the sea, with no rituals, and on my own terms. My ashes be scattered in the vast oceans, this way I'll always be travelling via the beautiful waves and this is, my final wish to complete.

In the future, everytime you miss me, look at the sea, because I will travel the world in this way. The sea is my home and will always be my home.

There is no sadness and pain for me and I'm glad this journey ended for me knowing I've spent it with my loved ones. I truly dislike rituals with what to do and what not to do. Mentally I am finally complete.

Fair winds and following seas, as I embark in my next voyage. Take care of yourself. It's time to have fun for myself finally hehe.

Till we meet again, I've had a good life. I hope yours will be perfect too❤️

(Longitude and latitude where I've seen my last and most beautiful sunset and, began on with my next voyage. Till then❤️) 

Second Fitstop yesterday (Membership 3 weeks signup!)

So... this happened yesterday! signed up for a 3 weeks membership (with promo) at Fitstop for $59, and did a cardio session with nathan yesterday! Mingsheng sadly didnt join us again due to last minute meeting. "You go, I go" This is the most memorable part of the entire cardio, where by nathan did 5 push up and i did 5 push up all the way till the end of the round. its so motivating and enjoyable! Had a great beer session with nathan and cheryl at barbus after the sesh! Looking forward to the next session already haha I went shopping for Crossfit + Gym wear this week at IMM and decathlon joo koon, its so nice and i love it so much, i call it the slutty outfit for me xD

Till next~!

First Fitstop Downtown! (With Nathan and Cheryl)

So much anxiety before going for today's workout, thinking whether ill be judged, thinking of my attire, thinking about whether ill be able to catch up with the pacing of the class. Didnt know where is the location and had to call niet when i reached, almost got lost when i walked to the other side of the building(important to have good friends haha) so heres my review after the workout. Glad i was able to join, the experience was perfect and the vibe was right. Everyone was motivated and the trainer was very good with names haha (so motivating when youre tired and have someone shouting your name) Trainers demo all the sets prior to exercise and explained what not to do to avoid injuries, i like the warm up as well as the cool down sessions alot! Mingsheng wasnt able to join us today cause he needs to settle his car maintenance as well as dental appointment. hopefully we can all go tgt nxt week! Things i learnt from niet today, friendly with people, good hearted and the way he made sure he drove everybody home safely really warmth my heart. He's really such an awesome bro to have ^.^ He surely have his problems too, but he is able to cast it aside and be focused at what he has on hand currently. alot to learn from him! Cheers, good workout and 2 jobs coming tomorrow. Gonna hit the gym and contiunue doing my Pigu + shark abs tomorrow!

Hari Raya Haji

Today went pretty well, got back to brushkart fb and fnd the feeling. almost dint touch bk for an entire month. ian john came and helped out with the job on his non work day so i pretty much had a damn good laugh thru the entire day tho, would have been better if ardy was around to (preparing for hari raya and spending time with his family. That said, im only 1 year younger than him and 2 years younger than wong, yet both of them have 2+1 and 2 kids respectively... woosah, and friends around me are either married or getting married soon haha. But... of course there are sad cases that involves divorces too.. sigh. looking forward to wishing my friends selemat hari raya tomorrow, and working two jobs tomorrow. Need to pack my bag tomorrow with a set of shorts and t shirt, towel, and a changeout clothes to prepare for thurs or friday to join nathan's fitstop gym. Cant wait actually, well, its sort of a challenge for myself as well as to see where i stand in terms of physical fitness. And... also to see if i like gymming more or spending shorter time to have exercise with a group of people. We shall see.. we'll know soon. Tada, nothing much to update here for today, pretty much spent 11.5hrs out in sea and just got home from dinner, gonna chillax a little and sleep soon!

A New IPad keypad + casing combo! Restarting a daily journal habit (trying)

Hi ! Its a new month with many challenges ahead, surrendering of house upcoming, uncertainties of whether the potential buyer will be anal and sue us for fraud. But recently ive had a few happy things to ponder upon.. like securing a package deal as perm fl with CDS, its currently running on month 2 and things are going well.. so far. Im happy with the work timing as well as work load, many times with 2 jobs in a day. It keeps me busy and my mind away from spinning into negative thoughts so i think its a great start. 6 months into my fitness journey.. im gonna try something new this week. Joining nathan's fitsstop training together after work, hopefully mingsheng will be able to join us too! Im currently happy with the results that im getting.. just that i need to watch my alcohol intake so that the stomach doesnt show haha. Done with chest, arms, shoulders, abs, and am currently training my legs + ass. Swinging cable abs exercise as well as hitting the incline threadmill after a strength training really helps, like a lot. I already feel healthier haha! Ok, thats it for this journal entry, hopefully i'll be consistent throughout. Ohya, on the final note, 2 jobs today and ended 230pm, simple joy and wins in life ^^ Cheersx