Thursday, July 9, 2009, 8:59 AM

Doctor Ong : " Flu like symptoms, MOH says you'll hve to stay at home for 1week, no school for you SEAdric "

Cedric : "omgwtf"

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Tuesday, June 30, 2009, 8:41 AM

Watch transformers on sunday, nice movie to recommend. :) Saw ZHENGSHENG too, miss the secondary school times alot.. Well, this week's mst week, hope everybody stays healthy. I've got myself a pigglet LOL.

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Monday, June 8, 2009, 10:00 PM

Went out with LittleRedRidingHood today!
first time!

FUN CAN!
I'm a greedy pig, i admit.

LOL.

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Sunday, June 7, 2009, 1:16 AM

BEST FRIEND FOREVER OKAY.

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Thursday, June 4, 2009, 10:55 PM

Cedric is confused.
With the world, society and with himself.
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I don't know what I want in life, perhaps fun tops my list for sure.
Second on the list.. to be honest I've no idea.
Family and friends?
I really don't know.

And to be honest, I've lost all my aims in life the moment I left National Youth Team Air-rifle team. Till today, almost after 8months, my heart aches whenever I recall the happy times me and my rifle buddies went through together.
My wonderful Coach who never gave me up, gave my tons of chances to prove myself, the Cedric now wouldn't be here without you. You've made an huge impact in my life, Coach Edmund Goh.
Till now, I still remember what you've taught me.

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Would you believe me if I tell you I'm really tired of life? I bet no.
Cedric is always smiling, laughing, being a retard or clown yeah :D?
But nobody really understand what I feel deep down.
I'm all alone at the end of the day, all alone..

Have you ever felt lonely walking along the crowded streets of orchard road?
I have so much agony inside me, yet I'm unable to do anything.
(I know you guys will say i'm thinking negatively and will ask me to cheer up and look at the bright side of life, guys, I know because I always tell this to others.)
I'm not being negative, I'm blogging out my thoughts, hoping to find peace this way.
(Obviously it failed badly, because I still feel as down.)

I'm ok with everything in life, I'm contented with life. I'm happy that I have a group of buddies and friends around me, brightening my everyday.
What I'm not happy with is me, myself.

I know there's so much I can do to change things around me, yet it seems that I feel helpless almost everytime..
I'm sick and tired of life, period. Nobody is going to tell me how life is so beautiful and wonderful, because that's your point-of-view about your life. And I have mine.

Life is full of unfairness. It's how we deal with it and forcing ourselves to look at the brigher side of life that makes life wonderful. It's us, who really make life wonderful. . Until Someday I change my mindset because of something good, this negative thought will always be with me, that life sucks and I'm tired of pyschoing myself to believe that life is beautiful.

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This post below dated back February 23, 2009, and till today, June 6, 2009, I'm still feeling the same. This is how much i've changed, nothing.

I feel helpless, no one in the world understands me. Sometimes I yearn want to be alone. To get away from everybody. To do whatever I've been longing to do.People always ask this question, what will you do if you became rich one day?
-If I'm rich, I'll live in a small house on my island faraway from everybody.Build a garden around my house,Canoe out to sea when I feel cranky, catch fishes and free them back to their world.Rear rabbits and grow sweet smelling flowers in my backyard.At night, I can even lie down on my beautiful well laid grass patch and gaze at the stars.Close my eyes and make wishes when meteor showers lights up the darkness.As wind constantly pounds on my face throughout the night.I shall lay peacefully beside the camp fire, and fall asleep almost like a newborn baby.And only be awoken by the chirping of birds high up in the trees the next day..This is how much I yearn for peace within me.

I need to find peace in myself as soon as possible, because the darkness and confusion is creeping deeper and deeper into me. I don't need a helping hand from anybody. I will walk out of this myself.I'm strong.I just feel weak mentally in this period of time in my life...

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I'm good, I'm fine.
Don't worry.

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Wednesday, June 3, 2009, 10:31 PM

Give in the best so that you can get the most for yourself. And if you really want things to happen, it will happen, just put in your heart and soul into everything you do.
You'll be fearless if you believe that you're dead even before going for a war.

Some quotes I find really meaningful.

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Alright, I'm glad i'm able to meet with Glenda and Beanice both today. Although we haven't seen each other for a very long time, we were still as chatty whenever we were together.

I got updates from both of them bout what's going on in their lives, and I'm glad I did.

To glenda and beanice.
You know I treat both of you like my younger sisters. I actually care alot of what's going on in your lives even though I may not show it out. I'll always be here with you if you ever need a pair of listening ear.

To glenda : I'm very glad you're independent to takecare of yourself, but sometimes you'll have to spare a thought for the feelings of people around you alright. Don't be too cocky k! Lend an ear to your friends/classmates and you'll find them being by your side when you need them.
You're a great buddy, I'm very grateful to have an angel like you in my life.

To beanice : You know what I was telling you all the while during the bus ride home today. You know what you will need to do. Campfire, you're holding onto the torch and as the campfire dwindles, decide whether you want to relight the campfire which you've spent so much time building it, or just let it burn out.
You're the one holding the torch, nobody can force you to make any decision.
Don't be afraid of the results, dont bother, just do what you have to do and that's it, no regrets.
I'll be standing behind you and supporting you forever.

Promise me that nothing will bring you girls down.
After today's meeting, I just realised how important you girls meant to me in my life and how much I missed you girls.

As always, failure or success, give me a call and I'll be there for you.

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Tuesday, June 2, 2009, 10:58 PM

Motivation.
When you have no experience you have to make up for it with hunger,
Your willingness to take shit and improve must be insane.

driX.

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Monday, June 1, 2009, 10:40 PM

Amirah Wilson Isaac Idah ME AND SHA!

<3s.

On the side note.
I was viewing thru my posts, and I realize just how much regrets I have inside me leaving the team, not fufilling what I was suppose to do without trying my very best.

Letting me coach and teammates down.

Tears roll down my cheeks whenever I think about the past fun and laughters I had with them in safra.

I miss you guys..

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Tuesday, May 26, 2009, 10:40 PM

Hello guys. It's been long since I last posted.
I guess it's time to do some spring cleaning.

Well, these few weeks couldn't have been more fun! Buddies in school, friends in CS, as well as a Sp interactive media peeps. Well haven't really study much yet, perhaps haven't feel the stress yet!

SP Counterstrike 1.6 is holding trials, I'm the trialer HAHA!
Do come down if you're interested in joining the team, of cuz you must be a student from sp. :)
Official date still not confirmed yet, will update here haha.

So, I need you guys to give me your new links too, i need to arrange my friend links soon, it's getting cocked up. --''

BYE! :D

(L)

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Thursday, May 7, 2009, 10:55 PM

Lesson's fine, school's nice.
Joining two CCAs, Community service and cultural club and Interactive media club.
HAHA.

Hope everybody enjoy their day at the part at zouk.
WILSON STOP FKING BIO GIRLS LOL.

I'll post lesser.
yeah.Takecare dudes.

I'll be back, I promise.
Till then <3

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Friday, April 24, 2009, 11:24 PM

This post shall be a small summary to sum up what happen in school this week.
So.. yeah. Enjoy YO!

First of all, I would like to thank all the angels above my head for giving me wonderful classmates. Because we're pratically a group of fun loving peeps gathered around in the same course, although most of us belongs to different age groups, WE HAVE NO GENERATION GAP AT ALL !

Guys crack jokes and make everybody laugh like idiots during lectures, guys get ladies' number during lectures, guys praying that lesson will end early during lectures!

And of course, we'll study seriously when the joke is over.

Abi- Class Head Funny Man, Role model.
Addam- Class Assistant Funny man, Wise character.
Nathen(referee license)- Muay thai!
Wilson- Best Buddy.
MingSheng- Primary school friend.
ZhengHao- Serious guy.
HongXing- Blur!
RongBao- Hardworking.
Lawrence-Quiet.

Cedric-HANDSOME, CUTE, SMART, WISE, FRIENDLY, FUNNY.
Fuck la, you and I both know that all these are not true about me. zz.

Alright, moving on. Finally I've found Sp's interactive media(gaming) club, and I gamed a few rounds with derrick, President i think.
I must say the "lanshop" is not bad afterall.

Hmm, Thats all I wanna post fr now. :)

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Wednesday, April 22, 2009, 7:07 AM

HEEHEEHEEHEEH.

IT's PARTY TIME HEYYO!
Poly studies is life.

Shall update soon, watch this space.

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Wednesday, April 15, 2009, 2:08 AM

100th Post.
It's been long since the last post, readers.
Borrow me your ears as well as your eyes, as this will be yet another lengthy post.

Today is labelled the crappiest day of the month for me.
Black Tuesday, Fuck.
I quarrelled with mother in the early morning, immediately after opening my eyes.
I went to school, and got dismoralized by my class as well as school.
Nevermind, I went for lunch and friend's house to do school work.
Got demoralized by it.
Got home and took a nap, woke up and mum disappear leaving a goodbye message.
Went into my favourite CS game to relieve stress, end up quarreling with friend.
Went into other servers and continue to game, and got fucked by father for gaming late.

The only nice thing was at around 12, WHICH WAS AFTER THE FKING BLACK TUESDAY.
When Wanyi called, and we chatted for a good 45mins.
That was when I felt better in mood.
I swear yesterday was screwed up, so fuck it and goodbye.

Wednesday I welcome you with open arms.
However I have no plans at all for today.
Maybe I'll go out for lunch and movie, as mother won't be preparing food for me. Don't know where the fuck she went and I don't care anymore. She doesn't give a damn, so why should I bother.

I look forward to thursday, SP FLAG DAY!!!
I promise, that I'll be good and complete it.
Because for the past flag days, I went Aimus house and play cards, and returned with an empty can!
Bad, I know.

Alright, now moving on the school work. The lecturer of mine is cool, steady, and his name is MrTan, Bernard Tan. He's those kind of lects who looks quite good in teaching, however, I don't know whether "looks are deceiving" or not, time will definitely tell.

Went for School computer training today, from 9-12pm. Brought laptop and end up using it to cs. Wth -_-

Alright, shall continue post tmr as I really don't know what to post now..
Goodnight and bye.

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A New Start.

Monday, March 30, 2009, 9:06 PM

Hey guys, this will be a long update. Be patient as you read on, Cedric is getting emotional here again.

I'm back from the 4days3nights camp organized by the SP Community Service Cultural Club. I must say it was really enjoyable and I've made great friends during the camp. I've found the long-lost buddy-ness in my life. The cool support you get from your team members when you're playing vs gamesw with other games. The feeling was nice, almost too overwhelming.

Hecates.
Daddy - Jun Xian
Mummy - Belinda
And 17 wonderful bonded children.

I give 10/10 for the bond we share.
We shared great joy during these 4 days.
I thank you guys, for giving me such wonderful memories.

Cheer One--
I say you say~~~ I say (x2)
I say hecate number ONE!
C'mon C'mon everyONE!

I say you say~~~ I say (x2)
I say hecate never lose,
Never Never Never LOSE!

Cheer Two--
Hecates~ de~ Da-po
Woooosh! (Muscle)
Hecates~de~Zha-bo
Woooooo! (Sexy)
Hecates~de~ Da-po
Yan~dao~~~~
Hecates~de~Zha-bo
Sui~ah~~~~

Simple Cheers, but we're able to make it the loudest and roaring within all of us all these days.
We went through the toughness of the games together, endured the worst of the worst and in my heart, we're the best and I know we really are.
What pulled us thru the camp days without home and family, are friendship and faith in one another. I love you guys to the maximum!

The GroupLeaders took over the responsibilities of taking care of us and I think they really did great! Especially my (di-eh)(PA) and (Niang)(MA)

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RESERVED, WATCH THIS SPACE.
<3

Hello, Im here!
The reason why I got this space reserved is because I wanted to make it special. So you guys would rest first before reading here..
And I was too tired to continue posting after the 5hours, 3hours and 1hour sleep during the past three days.

I was shocked to see how organized are the games station, they were seriously team-bonding games and extremely hard to play if there wasn't any teamwork in the team. I'm glad how Hecates pull through all the games station as a team. Giving support to one another during low-morale times, and cheering for the other teams when we've won.

I remembered one station on the second day, where we've to compete cheer with the other team because it was a tie. The other teams must cheer for us and we must cheer for them. I remember us cheering positive stuffs bout them even though they were cheering something bad.
I'm really glad that we've won that station.

Second day of camp games.
Hecates started out with low-morales as some of us lost our voices, had muscle aches and we were really sleepy. We had to wear a hand-sized cardboard and play a hand hockey thingy.
The team A of hecates which consisted of 8players manage to get a draw with the opponent team.
Then the team B which consisted of me were substituted into the court. We played hard and manage to try some good few attemped goals which really brought up our morales.
However at this time, the gamestation ICs wanted to have 5 girls from each team on the court.
I felt devestated as I knew if team B kept up the good work, we could have scored quite a few goals.
So we continued to play, and due to one careless mistake, we lost a goal of 2 points to the other teams.
I felt unfair, angry, and screwed when we were told to cheer for the other teams.
I didn't do the cheer with the rest of the hecates, I stood behind and tried to hide me emotions.
Yes, I wanted to win. Because I know it is a great morale booster for everybody.
I hated the person who caused us to lost our games to the core.

We walked up the the next station at the 4th floor, all along I kept quiet. Some of the members noticed that something was wrong with me and they consoled me. But I was even angrier because I knew they had forgiven her already.

The next game was human foosball. Where players form groups of 5 and must move as one.
We were losing at first with the other team leading at 7, and I was the goal keeper.
However when they switched to the tennis size ball, we kept scoring and were able to pull up the score to us, 10-9.
We Won.
I felt guilty when everybody came and tell me, you did great. Because I knew I didn't and I knew it was all their credits. I broke down and I walked out of the room because I was unable to control my emotions well..
Perhaps it was the sense of bonding which overwhelmed me, I really don't know how to explain all that things that were going through my head in that few seconds.
Maybe to put it into readable words for you, I was touched.

The last night, Jim and I went down to look for food, we ate noodles, drank coffee and coke and had loads of fun with the other groups' guys, namely banshee's alif, cheerleader. And ni-key.
Went back up to sleep at 4-5plus.

The end of the camp was a emotional one for everybody. Becuase during those four days, we had so much fun together. We eat, sleep as well as play together.
AND ALSO!
Hecates out of the Six other groups, our team flag didn't get snatched away by the gps, because even when we're eating, we held on tight to it. We Rocks!!

Lastly,
Even though I feel that there were so little fate between both of us for us to interact in this camp, I am willing wait for it.
And hopefully you'll join CScc, for I'll be waiting for you there in the club.
That is my only wish for now, pet.
Hope we're really able to be friends and I hope you'll jiayou in everything you do in the future.

Alright, on the sidenote, I thank god for giving me great joy and fun during the past few days.
Thankyou.

ADD-ons.
The disco night on the last day, was fabulous. I have never had such fun all in one night.
It ended with a dance with petrine, which was really etched deeply into my heart, it was nice.
I hope YOU had as much fun as much as I did!
:D

-Camp Post Ended, Hecates Zai.-

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Thursday, March 12, 2009, 1:26 AM

March 13 Update.
Weird pictures taken on march 11.

March 12 , 1Am.
Cloudy, Windy.
Midnight.

Sp overwhelmed me today with their warmth welcomes and I didn't regret choosing Sp to be my school.

Today I'm not a Sp-ians, Tomorrow I shall be one.
WAIT!
Is later in the day ! :D

Glenda, send me the picture asap k (:
We wore the educated blue and grey tee, damn outstanding can.
As in, we're the most couple-look-a-like but we're not couple !
I bet most of the seniors have mistaken us as a couple.
#
later on going down for me own enrollment thing, hopefully everything will be completed without any major probs.

Things to do when I get my laptop.
- None.

News Flash:

Earlier this month, most of the Internet radio streamed out of Singapore suddenly went offline.

The reason: It is going to cost broadcasters thousands, if not hundreds of thousands, of dollars each year in license fees depending on the number of stations they operate.

MediaCorp’s 18 radio stations as well as Safra Radio’s two stations — Power98 and 88.3JIA FM — have stopped their Internet radio streaming service.

WHICH, means that my 987fm got unplucked too.

At first I was still wondering whether my window media player outdated.
Mediacorp must have got sucked dry already.

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Looking forward to my poly enrollment tomorrow.
And laptop on 16thmarch.

Priority after laptop- Transfer all my contacts to :

cedricchai@hotmail.com
cedricchai@hotmail.com
cedricchai@hotmail.com
cedricchai@hotmail.com
cedricchai@hotmail.com

PLEASE KINDLY ADD ME FIRST K ?
):

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Tuesday, March 10, 2009, 7:53 PM

I'm going down sp with glen and beanice to settle enrollment thing.
So-looking-Forward-to-it.

will be posting tomorrow.
(:

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Sunday, March 8, 2009, 1:24 AM

S-U-N-D-A-Y !
1:24am.

My stomach is stuffed and bloated with 2 prata sausages now, overwhelmed with the salty coffee that I've just drank for the very first time in my 16 years of living.
Feels great.
Because I'm forcing myself to do things I wouldn't do normally..

Bought a bag and Berm with belle in bugis, meaningful day.
I don't mind if anybody has (?) above their heads or in their mind, it's your fucking business.

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I got pissed off by the Philippino ticket person today.

She was suppose to provide help to me when I'm confused with the ticketing stuffs.
Yet when I approached her I felt even more helpless.

Cedric Chai fucking bets that even a 15year old Singaporean do better than whoever is sitting in the ticketing office.
Holy crap.
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backspaced.

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March 08.
5:42Am.

Alright, i've just backspaced away my unusual post on top. It's bout Edison and some stupid pictures of him comparing the size of his weewee. Quite small I must say.

Just finished watching Warlords, starring Jet Li, Takeshi Kaneshiro and Andy Lau.

Sleep 5hours later , then watch 10 000 BC.

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I've made a decision that I know will change my life forever. I've always thought that I need you in my life until one day I realize, I want you more than I need you.
Go seek your happiness, without me.
I'll stay behind, to watch you leave and forget me.

Forget me. This is the only way out for both of us.
Don't look back, because I'm too weak to hide away from you.
Don't forget the love we once shared,
Cause everything was so beautiful.
Every step I took, turns out to be terribly wrong and caused great sufferings for you and me.
But I know, you'll make a good girlfriend.
However time wasn't on my side.

You've done everything you could, for me.
You've tried your best.
I'm sorry.
That's the only thing I can say.

Let fate decide on our future, please view our blog for the last time.
I'll respect whatever decision that he's made.
I love you.

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Saturday, March 7, 2009, 1:15 AM

promise to blog tmr night.

(:

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Thursday, March 5, 2009, 5:41 PM

Blog is up and running!
all credit goes to glenda ong, sincere thanks.
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Alright, there really hasn't really been much happening nowadays. However I'll try to squeeze out every sentence I can in here, if not there wouldn't be anymore visitors to my blog.

Went stadium for badminton game with friends and spent the other 3/4 of the day at home.
Working tomorrow, then anticipating the arrival of the mighty weekend.
And there'll be shit loads of poly stuffs for me to clear next week.
There'll be canoe action in some reservoir, which I'm really hoping that it would impress me with some kick-ass actions.

Also buying laptop on the 16th, though haven't really decide which one suits me better, I'll sign up for skype. Hope it's better than msn! Still will be signing in to cedricchai@hotmail.com though. (:

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There is no quote of the day.
:D
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Wednesday, March 4, 2009, 11:27 PM

I know I've messed up my blog skin.
I know that you are pissed off to see that my blog is down and not functioning properly.

But dear readers, It'll be up and running as normal asap, I promise.

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4:37 PM

The world wouldn't stop turning for people who had just passed away, the economic downturn, the war, the spread of epidemic, the natural disasters, the terrorist attacks.
The world is beautiful only because we humans are created to make/think the best out in the worst situations.
Life would be empty if it wasn't for friends around you and it also wouldn't be beautiful at all without someone loving you.

平常心.

Life would be different, and perhaps tough.
But humans are designed and created to adapt, learn and remember.
I'll adapt to the new life, learn from my mistakes and remember them well.

Tata.

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Tuesday, March 3, 2009, 8:16 AM

平常心.
I used to remind myself this very often in the past. In shooting, studies, relationship.

3 Simple Chinese Letters.
Life would be extremely simple for everyone if we were all able to achieve this together.
It takes many many years to master this 3 simple looking words.

I'm am proudly to announce here.... that I am still unable to do it.
- my mood gets affected easily with what's going on around me.
- It is super duper easy to piss me off just by doing something stupid to me.

Seriously I don't know what I exactly I am posting here, or maybe I sound very nonsensical to you.
But that's because I didn't sleep last night and I'm not feeling very awake, now.
And there's simply too much stuffs going through my head now, in and no out.

Maybe I'll edit my post later on when I'm feeling more awake.
But for now, the urge to post my feelings right here and to share it with the entire .com population triumphs.

Bye peeps. Off for my breakfast.

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Sunday, March 1, 2009, 9:22 PM

Alright everybody, the party ends here. My sis is coming home in a few hours time, from genting.
So I have to return her laptop.

And, till I get my laptop around mid march, I won't be logging into msn using my living room's comp.
However I will still be posting, and updating my blog.

So, till we meet again, Good Bye.
(mid-march meet liao don't sad kay.)

Haha.

Happy 1st Anniversary, love you my boo.

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Saturday, February 28, 2009, 2:07 AM

Just in case I still haven't add you into my new msn's contact list, please add me alright?

CEDRICCHAI@HOTMAIL.COM

Hopefully will be changing blog's link too.

Well, a new start for the future?

cheers. (:

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Thursday, February 26, 2009, 7:42 PM

Oh Hello everybody. (:

Big sis went genting with her poly-mates, leaving her laptop at home.
SO... here am I using her laptop blogging, AND msn-sing. (:

I'm really looking forward to poly life, can't wait for march 12-enrollment day to come.
However, I'm a little worried bout the laptops fees.
I guess I'll thank my parents and sister by studying diligently.

My current three poly targets :
- Do well in modules.
- Excel in Canoe Polo.
- Bestfriends.

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Monday, February 23, 2009, 12:28 AM

It's been long since I've touched my blog.
Dust gathering, webs forming.

I've been avoiding coming to my own blog, perhaps because of my last post. Because I still feel the pain deep down. The pain of losing something, once so important to you.

I tried to hide the posts but I'm a blogspot noob, so obviously I failed. I'm only able to blog my thoughts yet not able to do most of the other stuff.

However, I'm still unable to blog out my feelings, I just find it too hard to turn them into words.
Maybe the following three words are able to let you understand my feelings, at least to a certain minimal extend..

-Confused, Tired, Frustrated.

I'm a bit confused with the life I have now, I want school to start asap.
I'm tired repeating every mundane things that I've to do every single day.
I'm frustrated with the tons of stuffs I've to submit before entering poly.

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I feel helpless, no one in the world understands me.
Sometimes I yearn want to be alone.
To get away from everybody.
To do whatever I've been longing to do.

People always ask this question, what will you do if you became rich one day?

-If I'm rich, I'll live in a small house on my island faraway from everybody.
Build a garden around my house,
Canoe out to sea when I feel cranky, catch fishes and free them back to their world.
Rear rabbits and grow sweet smelling flowers in my backyard.

At night, I can even lie down on my beautiful well laid grass patch and gaze at the stars.
Close my eyes and make wishes when meteor showers lights up the darkness.
As wind constantly pounds on my face throughout the night.
I shall lay peacefully beside the camp fire, and fall asleep almost like a newborn baby.

And only be awoken by the chirping of birds high up in the trees the next day..

This is how much I yearn for peace within me.

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I need to find peace in myself as soon as possible, because the darkness and confusion is creeping deeper and deeper into me. I don't need a helping hand from anybody. I will walk out of this myself.

I'm strong.
I just feel weak mentally in this period of time in my life...

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Wednesday, February 4, 2009, 12:03 AM

It hurts so much to look back at the past, just to realize that everybody have long moved on with life.

I look back at my hard-earned achievements in the past, just to realize that they've been long forgotten.
I realized all my close friends that I've known from shooting, have already drifted far away from me.

All those buddies I had in the past have turned into complete strangers.

I can't help but feel jealous.

But still, I wish you guys all the best in bringing glory for Singapore in the future.

These memories will be kept in the deepest part of my heart.
I really had a lot of fun in that period of my life.
I will be strong, and move on with my life.
Shooting, will finally be kept aside.
The red hot passion for shooting, will be buried deep within me and be carried along with me throughout my life.

I hate it, but, goodbye my friends.. I hope we meet again and be good friends in the future once again..

Nobody will ever understand the agony and pain that I'm suffering from.
But I'll be fine.

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Sunday, February 1, 2009, 12:44 AM

Happy 11th Monthsary my love.
I love you.
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Went for work almost half a day today, super angry with the manager.
Will be quitting soon, can't stand it anymore lo!

Tomorrow going mac to study with ling!
excited (:

Going to sleep now, super restless already..
Byebye and sorry for the short post!

(:

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Saturday, January 31, 2009, 12:21 AM

Helo.

I bet everybody must be excited and looking forward to Poly's life? I wish everybody well in their future tertiary education. For those who entered Jc, I hope you do well and be successful in your studies too.

As for me, I'm posted to Singapore Polytechnic. I hope everything will be smooth, and God bless that I'll overcome all obstacles that stands in my way.

Went to watch wedding game for the second time with honey and friends, still very funny though!
Honey was like laughing way earlier before the funny things even happen lor, damn cute. -___-"

Tmr will be a hectic day for both me and honey, hope everything's fine!

Lastly, LING READ DABIAN BLOG THX.
loves.

My beautiful girl. <3

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Wednesday, January 28, 2009, 10:55 PM

Went out with Angella and Junliang today, went arcade and spend $30 bucks, haha.
Nice (:!

Fetch honey from school and went for dinner together.
Even nicer (:!
I teased honey as usual, hahahahahaha.

Well she's bathing now, going to sleep after that.
Fetching her from school tmr again, go jp buy thumbdrive for my lappy.

Everybody embrace youself!
Two more days to get your postings!
HAHAHAHA.
Jiayou AH!!!!!!!!!!!

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12:47 AM

Posting coming out in 3 more days, but I DONT CARE lo!
Because here I come to you my dream course!
Woots.
Can't wait to get a lappy too.
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Went out with honeybaby to bai nian with family on new year's day, first year.
Shy shy somebody !

I love my Hong.

Edited and Extended.

3:03am post started.
It will be a long post, it's been long since I typed something long.
Hands itchy.
-Mentally Emotional Post, sort of like a roller coaster ride for me.

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Everything seems to be going back on the right track for me, life and as well as my relationship.
And now, studies too.

Very soon I will be able to commit myself into studies once again.
Expand my current small friends circle.
Get to know buddies who'll be able to go to pub together in a few years' time.
Accompany baby through her big O's, to step into her dream course in her dream poly.

For further dreams will be something like..
Go get my driving license and drive my family for supper.
Drive baby to far places we've always longed to go.
Get my diploma.
Enlist into NS.
Grow back hair, because of NS.
Further my studies.

Well, these are my goals for now. During the 'holidays' for these few months. I've rotted completely. Now, I believe it's time for me to wipe the dust off my ass.
The rotting seems to be helpful though, it rotted away my negative visions.

I know that I will now be able to set clearer and more achievable goals in the future.
Who knows what awaits me in poly, but for now, I love what I possesses.

Tight-knitted Family bond.
Sweet-loving Girlfriend.

These two assets will be the most important contribution to the driving force that I will soon bring into Singapore Poly. I will enter SP modestly and graduate from SP proudly.

I'm really looking forward to my future.
A future together with Dearest, Hong Xiuhui.
The one who stood by me no matter what happens.
A quiet yet loving woman who always care.
The one who always holds my heart dearly.

You've been my key driving force as well as constant motivation for the past 10months and many days. In life or in school work, you've been showering me support in all sorts of form, scolding, yelling, screaming, forcing, pinching, kissing, hugging and most important, loving.
But I love you much too.
A habit that I am unable to quit from.

As heavy yet not as deadly as compared to drugs.
Yet it pains me whenever you're not by my side.
I won't die from it like you say everytime.
But without you, my brain stops thinking logically.

Because you're my logic and because you're my everything.
I am able to say all these to you now, because I love you.

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I've once read a shooting senior's last blog post, it goes something like this..

"To the lost souls out there,

Life is full of opportunities, you just need to know when to seize them.
Life is full of friends, you just need to know where in your heart to find them.
Life is full of wars and political bloodshed, you just need to know when to fight and when to steer clear.
Life is full of hope, for those who open their eyes wide enough to see them.

Stay true to the person that you are, and not try to be someone that you aren't. Then you'll go far in life, further than you've ever dreamt of.
Believe in yourself. sometimes a little bit of confidence can do wonders.

You can do wonders for your own life, and for others as well. It depends only on whether you want to.
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Thank you Jun Yang. Although you might not know how many people you've saved from darkness because of your post, I was one of them.

I was really deeply motivated after reading it, finally decided to pick myself up from where I fell down and continue to head towards the correct direction ahead.

You were my idol in shooting as well as a role model in life.
Even though we were not close at all, all these while I've regarded you as the first person who made a huge impact in my life, 恩人.
Therefore I hope to continue to pass on this very important message which defined who I am today, to everybody, every lost souls out there regardless of your age.

A message which is simple, yet very meaningful.
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For now, goals are set and visions are clear. Motivation fully charged and adrenaline pumping fast throughout my entire system. I will sprint to my targets ahead till the very last bit of energy in me, and never to say give up.

I've a personal message for everybody too.

" To all :
Never give up on what you've always believed in, for life is always full of ups and downs.
Persist till the end and never say never, for when there's a will, there's a way.
Everybody is born a talent, hidden deeply within yourself waiting to be discovered, by yourself.
Nothing is too big because you will be able to dream bigger than it.
Always believe in miracles that you are able to create for yourself or the world.
Everything will be fine in the end, if it's not, then it's not the end.

When you look back into the past and get sad, you must also be happy when you look ahead into your future."

Goodnight Everyone.
4:07am.

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Monday, January 26, 2009, 10:03 PM

hello people :D
XIUHUI here (:
cedric is currently MIA-ing.

he will come back few days later. (:
people, DONT MISS HIM :D

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Thursday, January 22, 2009, 9:28 AM

Sorry dear readers for previous post. Was entertained by a few society clown leeches who kept bugging me for the past 2 days!
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Meeting baby for lunch later and shall continue post tonight. (:

Hmm, suddenly I realize that Chinese New Year and our 11th Monthsary are around the corner !
So fast going to be one year le, so excited to celebrate it with baby. (:
But she.. sought of know what I'll buy for her already..

ohya dear, read dabian de post, i posted things on it.

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Continued (:

Came back from work, and everything was great today.
Split from work till 6pm, so baby came benten right after school and we went to walkwalk plus eat lunch!
Had so much fun at longjohn's place lo.

Baby said something before she went up bus and headed for home, aw.
Say it more often ok? (:

Work was tiring though, manager went malaysia to celebrate chinese new year. And this means that I can make more drinks and drink :D

Byeeeeeeeeeeeee.

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12:13 AM

Dear wanted look for someone's archive link for older post's comments which contains my quarreling contents with it.
She just typed this and got what she wanted easily --> http://blahblah/2009_01_01_archive.html.

We couldn't stop laughing when we think of creature's words, (CANT GET THE LINK WITHOUT GOING TO DASHBOARD) , kept laughing at lowclass when we were chatting on phone.

(Creature now accused my dear for bookmarking the page now hoho) !

Few days ago I was still complaining to dear that the post in the it's blog overlapped and so dear couldn't see my quarrel de comments, however, dear was able to hack(LOL) into the it's dashboard and got the link lehhhhhhh ): BAD BAD DEAR da ni pigu :D

In reality, the archive's link was typed by dear at 10:10pm today when I was drinking with benten people. Believe it or not up to you! :D

Low class creatures insisted that we can only get the archive's link from the dashboard and accuse us of bookmarking. Low class creatures always accuse people and insist that other people do them wrong. I can't help but laugh at you.

Mind you, We're not low class people like you who now start to accuse people without any dumb prove.
We have enough quality education in school and we know what is respect and we will give respect to those who respect us equally. However, we also know how to defend ourselves using extreme measures against creatures outside.

I thank my teachers for teaching me and giving me a chance to be a useful person in the society unlike creatures who roam around the city and have the gloomiest future amongst all, society leech I should say.
However, nobody is targeted here. You are the leech if you know I'm talking bout you!

But still, this post is not dedicated to anybody specifically.
Low class people is not referring to reality society class division, and is just a type of people in my blog.
Creature in this post is referring to solely, creature.

If you're offended, kindly note that you may click the red little cross on the top right hand side of your computer screen to get out of my blog.
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Anyway TODAY WAS GREAT.
I didn't sleep for the whole night, afraid I couldn't wake up in the morning to cook breakfast for baby. Started cooking at 4plus, haha.
Made a bowl for father before he went for work too. :D

Went to look for baby and accompanied her to busstop to wait for bus, had breakfast at 500+ market and then went home and slept like there's no tomorrow.
Woke up and went to school to fetch baby from band to have dinner, went to mac and "Do Homework".
LOL..

After sending dear home, went to benten for reunion dinner, got $10 hongbao !
Drank wine and ahking was drunk^.^
Had much fun although it was short, cuz next day everybody have to work ma.
Dear nearly scolded me for being drunk la ):
sorry.

I love you dear. (:
Thanks for proving that the it was really stupid like I always say lor.
I feel better now.
muacks you many. (:

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Tuesday, January 20, 2009, 9:47 PM

Sometimes, victory is gained when you remain silent. When you don't join in and degrade yourself with low-life people. Picking up a fight with somebody who doesn't know what they fought for, is a waste of precious time.

Quarreling with somebody who doesn't even have the most simple respect for themselves or for others, is pointless.
Quarreling with someone who constantly point fingers to others and avoid putting the blame on themselves, is a never ending chore.

What you have shown me, is your true side.
You can continue to extract words from my blog, twist them, or even write compos just to show people, that you are right. Because I continue to live my fruitful life everyday.
However, if through this you gain confidence, I pity you. And I will graciously give you the win.
Solely because I'm not an attention seeker like you.

I will not degrade myself and end up making myself look stupid like you, getting involved in something that was started by you built on nonsensical accusations.
I live my own life and you live yours. You can choose to be respected or to be spitted at.
However people like you, choose to be spitted at.

People who gets mad over the smallest issues, are people who'll always stuck in their own pool of shit.
Think about insulting, if you feel better by insulting me, go ahead. I don't blame you for saying thing like that. Because you're pulling yourself down in front of me and I don't think I've to scold you for doing that.

Just because of a shitty link which anybody can save it or write it down, OR even create one easily by typing http://other people blog link/BLAH BLAH DATE archive.html, you put the blame on others? Oh man, get a life since yours has already got a zero future.

The above speech is not dedicated to anyone specifically.
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Went to fetch ling from school and went to IMM for lunch today.
Talked and enjoyed ourselves so much!

I made her angry and she almost cried, apologizing all the way..
And hug her, sayang her. :D

Saw Angela and Xiaoshi when we were leaving imm and headed for JP.
Went to Z and find glenda, and also to look for a few shirts.

Sent baby home after jp.
Today was simply great, cause it was 3-4 days ago since I went out with ling.
And we had so much laughter today, crazy one.

HONGXIUHUI SHOUTED IN JP TODAY :DDDDDD
And, I love you. (:

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12:44 PM

Friends who wants to view my Blog, please leave a comment stating your name.

Will only add friends of mine and Xiuhui.

Thanks. (:

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12:15 PM

Well, I hope everything is over.
Rainbow after the heavy downpour.

I'll post the comments up in my blog if I ever get to see it.
For people who don't know what's going on, I'm sorry.
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Meeting baby later (:, shall add on at night, BYE PEOPLE

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12:09 AM

Cedric to belle.

Belle, you started everything first place. You have prove that the 'anon comment' in the first place was written by Xiuhui? you started the flame by INSISTING that the 'anon comment' was from Her.

Let me ask you one simple question, You have prove in the first place?

You started the quarrel and put the blame on my girlfriend. You wrote in your blog until everybody was convince that my girlfriend started everything. AS IF she wrote the 'anon comment'.
Once again, You have any prove?

Even if you say it's from archive, that blog wasn't lock for a period of time. People can easily go view my blog in the past and get my archive.s

You quarrel without any logic at all. Great.

Don't think your English is SUPER good btw.
I felt guilty when i broke up with you in the past. But after I saw something, I wasn't anymore. In fact I was glad that I broke up with you. And that was why I didn't bother to reply your messages from then on.

"Hope he fails his o level" remember this sms?

HAHA, sorry i didn't.
And I even got an A2 for english.

Stop bullshitting when you don't have the prove that Xiuhui started the 'anon comment'. That's all I'm left with to say to you.

Whatever her friends said with their LOUSY English, was well, for lousy people.
You said their English was bad, but do you know how well they do academically?

Anyway to add on, and establish firm trust for my girlfriend.
There used to be archive folders in Sweetest-dabian.blogspot.com, but was removed just one day ago when Xiuhui changed the blogskin.

Think about it.

There'll be no ending when you're talking to assumption driven person cause it'll never end, therefore it's just a waste of energy and time trying to quarrel with one of them.

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Just chatted with baby and force her to sleep, haha.
Anyway work was tiring today, but felt great once again when people praise our services!
that sense of satisfaction is.... aiya you'll never understand even if I tell you. :D

Anyway I'm going to bathe now and go watch teevee.
Bye people.

Sorry for the quarrel post at the top. I hate people to quarrel without any prove!

meeting baby tmr for lunch (:

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Friday, January 16, 2009, 1:27 AM

O's done, Tertiary learning here I come.

Just submitted 12 courses, shall name the top 3.
- Integrated events and project management.
- Tourism and Resort management.
-Resort facilities services and management.

God please give me number one.

Alright I hope everybody have a wonderful break before the start of poly life.
See you guys there.
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I've let you down. I've caused so much hurt in you, even though you keep telling me that I didn't. People are doubting your decision, telling you what you should do. I know that you are stressed out right now. I understand that people around you are not supportive of our relationship like they used too in the past and, I don't blame them. They care for you and they want you to be happy. Baby you only need to listen to your heart.

Baby, you know something?
I've lost something I once cherished so much, the love between us. And being able to grab it and put it back in my chest once again, is something that I will cherish even more for the days to come.

I don't care how other people are criticizing me, for how bad a boyfriend I was.
I only care about your feelings.

I'm really grateful that you accepted the patch I requested, despite the things I did that caused so much hurt. I would be living in deep regrets and pain if it wasn't you by my side all this while, not giving me up. I was such an idiot. I'm sorry my dear.
In the future, I will continue to take care of you, love you as well as cherish you.

The most valuable gem in the world is discovered only when you lose it. Thanks for giving me a second chance, to re-discover this valuable gem call love. To be able to polish it and protect it, will continue to be my responsibility in the future.

Baby, yes you, Hong Xiuhui, I love you more than anything else in the world.

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Thursday, December 11, 2008, 1:55 AM

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done! ^.^
4.02am, used 2hours15mins to do this :X

Love you my boo.

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1:23 AM

(My male boss, Me (and my icecream halfway doing) and Miss Geogian.)
Geogian is leaving sg, as she's on an attachment from an university in philp for 6months only.. now that the time's up, so.. yeah.. byebye, takecare.

work is tiring, but satisfying.
I saw customers nodding their heads after drinking the drinks I just made for them today.
I saw families, couples, sharing the icecreams I made.

Even though I still can't perfect the art of spraying whip cream, I WILL SUCCEED ONE DAY! :X
(Hope this doesn't scare of any potential icecream customers) -_-

I hope I'll strive in the Bar counter ba :X
instead of shouting to geogian like a headless chicken like in the past.
"Geogian! pour this one right?! "
"Geogian! put apple ah?!"
"Geogian! HELP ME! T.T"

hahaha, so much fun la.

In this month, I learnt how to say japanese from this japanese guy called tomo San,
Welcome - Irashaimase.
Thankyou - Arigato gozaimas <- confirm wrong spelling.
Happy 9th months anniversary - Kyu Kagek tu, Kineh um bi.

ohya. Glenda, sorry arh can't serve you much. But I made your drink ok! yeah, today was crazy. Never had so many customer in the past! paiseh ohhhhh.

This week not working lo! going to pei ling go jp2, SHOP! :D
(job hunting also) :X
i want a god dam 6dollars or more job....
not greedy right..

But I really wonder, whether the sense of satisfaction from my job will be found elsewhere..

It's been long since I posted, busy working and going out with ling.
Practically spent my whole holiday in this manner,

Next week more fun, esp thurs.
going to watch one concert with baby, as well as twilight!
I WANT WATCH SNEAK PREVIEW!!!!
(baby don't let)
:X

okok, done posting.
time is 1:46am!
going off to sleep soon.
TATA!

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Thursday, November 27, 2008, 2:17 AM

Today's work is tiring.

topped up by yulin's injury, really screwed my day.
but i won't be able to go sgh to see him tmr.
maybe the day after tmr just before my work.

im sorry..
anyway, please get well soon.
(:

2nd day lo! bibibibibibibbibibii BOOOOOOOOOooooooooo.

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Wednesday, November 26, 2008, 3:14 AM

damn 987fm, for playing sad songs at 3am, when my baby just left me.

Sent girl to airport together with her jie and jie's bf.
The whole trip was filled with laughters and joy.
Until before girl have to board the plane.

Hugs exchanged, tears fell.
dumb girl :D

You'll be back, back to my side.
In just 7 days.
I'll pray for your safe return.

I'll be a good boy, and await your return.
Looking forward to hug you once again.
And hope you'll return in one piece.
With many many presents.
And a big kiss on our 9th months anniversary.

Baby, I'll miss you.
I just hope everything will be smooth for you.
And hope I'll receive your sms when I open my eyes in the morning tomorrow.

muacks. nights.

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Sunday, November 16, 2008, 9:52 PM

I just realize I have no true friends like others do.

I am envious of people who have die-hard buddies.
I am envious of people who have friends that are always there for them.
I am envious of people who always go out in groups.
I am envious of people who are always special no matter what they do, even if it's doing nothing.

I'm not special, I used to think that I was special until I stop shooting.
I'm not a good friend, I used to think that I was, by being a clown and make everybody laugh.
I'm not a good son, I used to be one.

I am a nobody.

Bloggy. thanks for listening to me whine.
although I didn't make me feel any better..

Nobody will understand what I'm going through now.

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Wednesday, November 12, 2008, 12:54 PM

nothing to post about actually.

only that.. O's IS OVER!

wellwell. Jiayou everybody.

Glenda: finally change liao :<
22 I think can, see what time and whether i have work or not, update me k.

Tada.

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Saturday, November 8, 2008, 10:25 PM

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Thursday, November 6, 2008, 10:44 PM

1. Besides your mouth, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
neck
2. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Yes!
3. How about now?
Yes!
4. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
Nopeee
5. Who was the last person you ate with?
Ling ;D
6. Are you currently taking a science class in school?
Yah
7. Kiss on the first date?
(*)
8. Would you rather have chicken or steak?
none
9. What were you doing at 10 am?
SLEEPing
10. Are you different now than you were six months ago?
a lot !!
11. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
no idea
12. How old will you be in 10months?
17 ^.^
13. Who was the last person to text you?
baobao
14. What month is your birthday in?
july
15. Can you live a day without TV?
noonoonoo.
16. When was the last time you saw your dad?
just yt night
17. How many pets do you have?
0
18. Are you a female or a male?
male
19. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
shoes in socks within a barefeet
20. What are you doing for your next birthday?
screammmmmmmmm.
21. What are you thinking about right now?
o's result & baby
22. Any plans for next weekend?
work
23. Do you smile alot?
i hope i do.
24. When was the last time you cried and why?
donno
25. Have you ever had a life-threatening injury?
nooo.
26. What do you want to be when you grow up?
donno
27. Do you like flying or driving?
driving!
28. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
wth.
29. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
food!
30. Do you wear any jewelry daily?
no..
31. Who got you the jewelry you are currently wearing?
nothing
32. Who is the funniest person you know?
baby, never fail to cheer me up.
33. How often do you remember your dreams?
nope.
34. What is your ringtone?
ting.
35. Pass this quiz to 3 people.
Jiaqi Lihui Glenda!

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Saturday, September 20, 2008, 2:17 PM

hi.

There'll be intensive lessons next week, will be busy too.
I just hope everything will be fine.
It'll be around 30 more days, before o's starts.

Well, at least prelim's is a confidence boost for me, though it isn't the best.

"If you like working hard at the last minute, it's already the last minute now."

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Friday, September 12, 2008, 9:38 PM

Prelim paper left Science MCQ on next monday.
Study on Saturday, Sunday.
Monday play badminton.
Tuesday accompany bi do her ic.

my short term plan. (:

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Monday, September 8, 2008, 3:52 PM

ah, very long never post alrdy.

Cedric's + Xiuhui's blog. (:
LALA

Shall End Here.

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Thursday, August 28, 2008, 10:13 PM

我们的眼睛,看外界太多,看心灵太少.

Tmr's teacher's day! Nothing to post today!
Perhaps people think about the quote above, it is pretty meaningful.
Goodnight!

Shall end here.

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Tuesday, August 26, 2008, 10:43 PM

Prelim's practical over, several more to go this week before the study-break. Wow.
I want to play badminton this week!
Have chinese paper tmr and ss paper the day after tmr.
All the best, everyone. (:
I cycled to your house, to hug you. This is the second time I cried in front of you, I don't know why either. :/ promise me, next time we have things, we talk things out properly okay? (:
I love you, darling. Shall End Here.

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Sunday, August 24, 2008, 7:08 PM

Played a great game of badminton at jurongspringcc with banhock they all in the noon.
Badminton rocks okay!

Hmm, but other than badminton, everything was so boring. Not even my favorite tv programs managed to cheer me up. My day is so freaking dull.. I just changed the light bulbs in my room, so bright yet, my mood is still so low.

baby, I miss you. your warmth hugs. your sweet voice. your honey kisses.
hhddl. I wonder whether you miss me too..

Shall End Here.

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3:03 AM

Sorry for making you angry today Dear..

Stayed at home till afternoon, only to have dinner outside at night. Went to cut hair. Baby came after her band practice, after my haircut we went for dinner together.

Ohya! We bought bubble tea at the shop near Coffee United after dinner. I paid $1.50 to buy a cup of tasteless oreo+pearl blended. SUPER PISSED. It wasn't the money, but the poor standard of that shop! Somemore it made me hate oreo ice blended for the first time!
Baby bought a nice cup of strawberry shake!

Sent baby home after that, but walked to the bus stop with heavy footsteps..

Going for a badminton game tmr at 2pm at jurongspringcc ^^!

I really hope things will be fine tomorrow. I pray, and hope that I will receive your sweet messages in the morning as usual (:
I love you.
Shall End Here.

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Saturday, August 23, 2008, 9:28 AM

BLOG REVIVED!
yay, many many thanks to baby. And shall post as requested!

This month so dam busy! And I got an B3 for Chinese O's, completed Eng O's oral. Celebrated 5months anniversary. Have tons of homework and self studies and many other things.

10years of primary and secondary education will be coming to an end in few months time. I guess Mon will be the last day I will have proper lessons, then a series of examinations will follow. Wow.

My To Do List for now.
Complete revision for my accounts, as well as all the subs subsequently.
Watch Meet Dave, and celebrate baby's birthday.

Misses-
Shooting, Coach Edmund, Alex, Thyejie, Yulin, Vanessa, Amanda, John, Cheston, Jiaqi.
I miss you guys. But I guess you guys will be too busy with school work and shooting..
To my Fantastic4 teammates, I'm sorry. But I hope we will still be good friends, like how we used to watch gay shows together in Darwin Australia and stuff the leftover pizza into the cupboard for 8days!

Baby, No matter what you must be strong ok.
I really really want you to be happy and safe, every single day.
See you later my love!

做一个勇敢的人,用生命的力量去化解那些遗憾!

Shall end here.

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008, 8:28 PM

1. Do you wish to get married?
-Not now.
2. What is your favourite colour?
-White and Red.
3. Who is the person you trust the most?
-Family, Xiuhui.
4. Who is your favourite idol?
-Justin Timberlake
5. Who is the person you hate most?
-It's better to ask who hates me.
6. Are you satisfied with yourself?
-I am I, I don't have a choice!
7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
-Xiuhui.
8. Do you believe in eternity love?
-No,everybody dies.
9. Have you broken someone's heart that he tried to commit suicide?
-No.
10. What do you like about yourself?
-I'm always not satisfied with myself.
11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
-Rough, Noisy, Crazy and you know i'm joking.
12. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
-Depends.
13. Do you treasure your family?
-Er.. SKIP :X
14. What do you dislike the most?
-Mas Selemat Bin Kastari
15. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
-Baby, Hong Xiuhui.
16.What do you regret most in your life?
-Being a bad Son, Boyfriend.
17. What kind of friends do you hope to be in your friend's eye?
-Outspoken.
18. Do you love your friends?
- ohmy, nightmare. goddam it, i hate those crazy funny dudes in my gang :/
19. Which date(s) you like most?
-1st of every month Anniversary, September 5th, Baby's birthday. PS: I ADDED THE (s) MYSELF :X
20. Live in the past or the future.
-FUTURE. Then I'll be able to support myself financially and then marry baby, if only she agree to it (:

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Sunday, April 27, 2008, 12:50 AM

Meet up with sweetie from 11 to 9plus, studied, ate, play, dating and many many other stuffs.

Enjoyed today many many!

Sweetie, probably you dozed off at 11plus le right?
I miss you. (:

Midyear's next week, TRY HARD HARD K EVERYBODY.

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Sunday, April 20, 2008, 10:01 PM

Without you, life seems to be sooooooooo boringgggggggggggggg.

"You'll cherish the time spent with her much more, when you miss her"

Awwwhhh, so true.

Dear current status : Droolingggggg. :X

I miss you lehs, faster wake up :(

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Saturday, April 19, 2008, 12:24 AM

唐傅给孙无空的信

你最近过得好吗？在天堂呆了一正子过得还不错。不知你在花果山过得如何。我们已经般家了但是地子没换因为搬家时把门牌也带来了。我把这封信写得很慢。因为我知道你看字不快。这个里拜下了两次雨，第一次下了三天，第二次下了四天。最近我们到 pizza restaurant 吃 pizza。工作人员问我们要剪成八块还是十二块。你啊姨说剪八块好了，剪十二块恐怕吃不完。以后我们一家人一起去吃牛肉饭。你那时要我们记去的外套，因为用邮寄会超重所以我们把扭扣给剪下放进那外套的口袋里。你畅鸸姐姐生了但我不知道是男是女。好了，最近就没什么事发生了。

低行：我们本来要记钱给你的。但是信封已经贴好了。

dear done (:
But I'm sure I made mistakes.
heehee.

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Saturday, April 12, 2008, 12:14 PM

Just a casual chat with Alex after his nanjing trip yesterday after training.

Cedric "OI ALEX! :D"
Alex "yo.."
Cedric "WHERES MY SLIPPERS I ASKED YOU TO BUY, I SMSED U! :D"
Alex "I lost my phone.. :("
Cedric "walao.."
Alex "Somemore i shot like crap"
Cedric "It's okay."

plus some blahblah crappings and fighting like small kids, we went into another topic :x

Cedric "Dude, my birthday is like 3more months away, TO 16-year-old ! :D"
Alex "Ya, time to lose your virgin"
Cedric "Yalor, WEE! :x"
Alex "Just don't call me 1 month later and tell me you've got AIDS"

wth -__-!

We gambled blackjack using the Beijing Olympic 2008 souvenir card, I won $1.50 from many 20cents bet LOLS, and opps, bent the cards too -_-

Having monthly shoot at 3.20pm, going to leave house already.

Poor girl she's sick, must takecare and drink more water arhs! :D

SEE YOU PEOPLE, TAKECARE!

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Tuesday, April 8, 2008, 7:16 PM

<3. (:

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Saturday, April 5, 2008, 12:17 AM

4.4.2008.

Oh my god, I blushed like hell when i heard her playing solo on stage! I feel so gandong, at that point, I'm sitting there and smiling silly! Rushing down to speech day after training wasn't tiring! I want to support you !

Congratulations, and I'm so proud of you. :)

Cheer up my dear.

Tmr's HTNS shoot,

Target - Try my very best.

Cheer up my dear

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Tuesday, April 1, 2008, 7:43 PM

Yay (:! I enjoyed today's anniversary!
After lesson today, Zs accompanied me to buy rose and we ended up late for chem lesson!
Carrying the present and the rose, I went kfc and meet up with dear, jemina and elvina for dinner. I reached earlier than them and decided to pass the present and the rose to the counter person, she's a nice person and glady offered her help! (: It was a surprise for dear, that after dear bought her meal, the person will pass her the present and rose on the tray instead of her meal :x.

Soon after they reached, we went to buy meals and I can feel my heart thumping so loudly and my hands so sweaty. The counter person served the present and the rose, dear didn't see it until I whispered 'happy anniversary!' :D I think the surprise worked well! (:
After finish eating, I changed the topic to the series of Low Kay Hwa's book, and dear didn't know that the (Out Of Print) book that she was searching high and low everywhere was actually the present I had bought for her! I asked her to unwrap the present, she was shocked for a few seconds before realizing what the gift was, and gave a sweet smile (:

She made a heart-shaped cake and together with a letter and a picture of us!
Dear! I know you've put in a lot of effort and I really appreciate it.

I love you. (:

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Monday, March 31, 2008, 10:58 PM

PEOPLEEEEEEEEEE! Happy April Fool 1hour in advance!

I shall post during weekends, or when I'm free! (: I'm going to do my homework already, so CYA guys!

Dear, Happy one month anniversary tmr! (:
I hope you'll like the present I've prepared.

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Saturday, March 29, 2008, 10:01 PM

HI DINGDONGS !
Sorry for the missing in action!

Let me name this week as the most freakish week of the year.

Why?

I studied till like 3am on 2 of the days this week and woke up at 5am, armed with only 2hours of sleep, I boldly went to school. I had oral yesterday, I had never screwed up my Chinese Oral so much this one. On Friday after training, I had finally realized what is it to be very

TIRED

. It's like when you doze off when you sit down, even if it's doing your fav. stuffs like watching television. I slept till 1.30pm today and dozed off at 3pm - 6pm ._
Next week will be another dingdong week. Her speech day, anniversary, trainings, study, competition.

>> I know I'm not a good counselor, from now onwards, I'll be a very good listener, promise. (:

West Life - Us against the world.

You and I,
We've been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire

You and I,
We still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire

Sometimes I feel like
The world is against me
The sound of your voice, baby
That's what saves me
When we're together I feel so invincible

Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world
Tonight

There'll be days
we'll be on different sides but
that doesn't last too long
we find ways to get it on track
and know how to turn back on

Sometimes I feel
I can't keep it together
then you hold me close
and you make it better
when i'm with you
I can feel so unbreakable

cause it's us against the world
you and me against them all
if you listen to these words
know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
cause it's us against the world
tonight

we're not gonna break
cause we both still believe
we know what we've got
and we've got what we need alright
we're doing something right

cause it's us against the world
you and me against them all
if you listen to these words
know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall

us against the world
me and you against them all
if you listen to these words
know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall

Us against the world
yeah it's us against the world, baby
us against the world
Tonight

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Sunday, March 23, 2008, 2:31 AM

The coffin I made for him, really hope he'll be happy with it..

fter his inside.. Went down at 2.30 to bury him

Burial Ceremony..

Finish burying oreo at 2.45am.

Poor darling, sorry to make you wait for me so long to bury it, until you're so tired that you dozed off. I think you didn't bathe right! I wanted to call and wake you up ask you to bathe 1, nevermind(: I hope you don't feel neglected, because I didn't mean it. Sorry! (:

---- Oreo R.I.P.

1st March, 21st March, Important Dates to remember!
XH - GoodNight, Sleeptight and SweetDreams. <3
I'll wake you up for breakfast later,

I went down to bury my poor hamster,
while my poor girl dozed off while waiting, I'm sorry. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 !

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Friday, March 21, 2008, 10:51 PM

A picture speaks a thousands word. (:

Wee! 3plus Xiuhui came my house @ 3plus till 8 ^.^! My sis came back at 8, shocked us lo!

DEAR SIS STOP SPYING ME !

I L Y :)

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12:29 AM

Darling ^.^

Things we wrote today in mac, Blue ink mine Black's hers !

Cedric & Xiuhui !

Grandma's Birthday!

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Thursday, March 20, 2008, 10:26 PM

I'm not going to post about anything else.. It's a sad day..
I didn't notice that the water bottle of my hamster finish already.. It's been 3 days since it last drank water.. It looks so thin and weak, don't even have the energy to stand up.. Oh God, don't take it away from me.. It's not time for him to go yet.. 3 years alrdy, I promise I'll really take good care of it if he pulls thru this time..

Please hammy, don't die on me.. keep on breathing.
I'll stay up all night to watch it.. Please don't go..
I'm sorry.. really sorry hammy.. :(

Tonight will be a crucial night, i'll never forgive myself if you die.. i'll hate myself forever.. so please keep fighting.. i feel so helplesss..

- Hammy passed away 2hours after posting, 11:50. March 3/20/2008.

Bon voyage buddy, I love you Oreo.

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Tuesday, March 18, 2008, 11:07 PM

Anybody interested what's happening in my life?! :)

Well let's skip the school part -_-".Went training after that, I slept 3 hours only k! Coach treated me drink :D He knows I'm tired, did only 1hour dry firing, well that's enough!
Went to eat dinner with Xiuhui! :D Hahas, poor girl she toppled her drink! So fun lo, we ate and talk till late 9 plus before sending her home, :) The streets are so quiet and it is dam nice! Everybody thinks that we're "Huai xiao hai", like so late alrdy still hang out ;x
OHYA! WE SAW KAHCHUN's DADDY UNDER HER BLOCK TOO! OPPS.

I'll listen to you, be guai guai and sleep early tonight, I'm super tired and I'm seeing stars already!

I enjoyed today, ^^.
And lastly before I close my eyes and sleep, I love you :) See you tomorrow!

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Friday, March 14, 2008, 3:38 PM

Pathetic performance today, sigh.
I won't give any excuses this time.. shoot bu hao jiu shi shoot bu hao, i'll work harder..

After Invitation shoot went to watch movie with Xiuhui! Movie's not very good, but I'm fine with it as long as you're by my side! :D
Loads of thanks for waiting patiently for me to finish shooting, and giving loads of morale support! anyway it's you who encouraged me to go back shooting ma!

This is the picture I sent you lo! The cat we saw under your block :)
And heng heng heng many hengs auntie never catch us! Thanks for giving me yet another wonderful day :) !

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Wednesday, March 12, 2008, 7:46 PM

Feels great to hug my gun again, still the same feeling as the past, no wonder I named her "oh my god"! Training very luan, position luan grouping luan !
Cedric's expiry date : 12/05/2008.
( Advised to throw if expired! )

Went to arcade and spent all money just like our tradition when we don't shoot good! It's been 3 months since I play cs with you guys! Jiaqi thanks for treating us!

Alex father drove us home, super kind! I ask him to drive me to lakeside and meet Xiuhui, we walked so far in the rain to the coffee shop, super soaked! We went to buy her dinner and then follow by the routine, accompanying her home :D! She hurt her ankle, feel so xintong. Take care leh. :)

Xiuhui xiuhui xiuhui ! Xiuhui xiuhui xiuhui ! :D
Xiuhui xiuhui xiuhui ! Xiuhui xiuhui xiuhui ! :D

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7:17 AM

the photos taken before xie lao shi leaves yuhua sec =(
Thanks for teaching us for 3months!

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Monday, March 10, 2008, 7:33 PM

我这一次站起来, 就走得比上次还要远, 还要辉煌.

我知道你会在我生边支持我.

我爱你, 洪秀慧(:, <3 !

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Sunday, March 9, 2008, 12:28 PM

4 more hours, I MISS YOU HEN DUO HEN DUO!
It's gonna be a long post about shooting and studies..

I went back for a shooting meeting with Coach and Captain yesterday, saw my shooting kakis Alex Thyejie Yulin Vanessa Hui min! I've to make a decision and fast, whether to start training after my 3 months break. I really miss shooting, I really miss my shooting kakis, I really miss the environment, I really miss the atmosphere, I really miss my gun, I miss my teammate. I have 168hours in 1 week, Captain only needs 15hours, am I able to pluck out time from 168hours? Maybe he's right, I just need to reduce the time I spent watching television. Maybe I'll burn midnight oil every day to gain more time from the 168hours. Captain set a higher target for me to achieve in order to stay in Nyt, so to ensure that I won't be replaced by juniors. The way Coach encourages me yesterday during the meeting, it reminds me of how hard we used to train, I miss his nagging "Must repeat actions! Don't think about scores! Captain said something that is quite meaningful, Captain -"The time you sacrifice for shooting doesn't guarantee results",
"The road for athletes ain't always smooth.."

Went back to school and get my progress report after the meeting at 8.30, I'm happy to see improvement in subjects I put in hard work to study. And it's time I do something about my maths and chemistry, I'll do everything I can to make the bloody marks go up! I don't want to regret when I get my O's result.

From Coach : "Just like shooting, studying requires concentration, I'm supportive of your studying too, don't you find it a waste just to give up when you're just beginning to show results? I know you're not able to let go of shooting because you still miss your shooting kakis"

Coach Edmund Goh - He is 1 man, who really made me change for the better during the days I trained under him, I miss trainings. Thank you Coach :D

Oh ya, Captain told me a story, it goes..

"There's this kid, who loves playing piano. His tutor asked him one question, how much time do you have for your piano lessons each day after your lessons and studying?

Kid replies "15mins".
Tutor told kid, "Give me your full attention for that 15mins everyday"

And so, Kid practiced his music pieces phrase by phrase instead of pieces by pieces and went this went on for years, but he never gave up that 15mins a day.

The kid became a world renown musician."

Sorry to make you listen to my problems yet again blog, but I've no where to vent my angers and worries on except you.

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Saturday, March 8, 2008, 6:12 PM

Saturday suck ! Been a sleepy pig today. slept till 2pm, 4 sleep till 6.. I'll study at night.
no motivation to wake up, I'm sorry I didn't pick up your call, I set my alarm clock at 6 then dozed off >.
*Now I know what's lovesick. I miss you.

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Saturday, March 1, 2008, 11:45 PM

WEE! back from movie - Leap Years!

Damn cool ! It's the first time I watch movie with you, everything went well !
I know you're worried bout whether my ma will scold, but it's more important to see you home safe and sound ;D

--->*I like holding onto your hands, how I wish the movie lasted longer! thanks for today, it's a meaningful day, for me and for you ! 'The common word in love letters isn't "Love", It's "Miss" ', understand why i kept using that word already? :D"

29/2/2008, Leap Years ! :D

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Friday, February 29, 2008, 11:11 PM

Leap years today! next one will be ..... 2012 !

thank you for staying up last night to pei me, but I know you're tired !

I'm very happy today!　
wenｔ mac ｆｏｒ dinner, follow by pictures spree !
I enjoyed your company, as well as the chat in mac !
And really, I meant everything I said, =D

hopefully the movie tomorrow will be nice!

I'll post the pictures later in the night, Goodnight and sleep tight, MISSES !

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Thursday, February 28, 2008, 5:51 PM

Nevermind ! You know I'll never blame you =)

I will start doing something about my studies, since I've stop shooting for studies, I must carry out my promise if not I'll be letting coach and teammates down as well as letting myself down too.

So many tests in a week, sch siao already. out to torture the sec4s.

*Xie xie ni for being able to lend me your ears when i need it most! I'll be your listener if someday you need somebody to talk to, I'll willing volunteer myself ! *

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Tuesday, February 26, 2008, 7:55 PM

HAHAHAHA!

I feel so bloody stupid to think like that..

sigh.

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Monday, February 25, 2008, 8:38 PM

22/2/08
Thanks Irfan!
Shouldnt have cover my face >_<

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7:02 PM

Today GREAT !

shld have eat dinner with you, >_______<
promise eat with you next time, =D

NO MORE MAGEEE MEEEEE PLEASE !

=D

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Sunday, February 24, 2008, 10:15 AM

I chanced upon my shooting buddy's blog,

Junyang's : To the lost souls.

to the lost souls out there,

life is full of opportunities, you just need to know when to seize them.
life is full of friends, you jus need to know where in your heart to find them.
life is full of wars and political bloodshed, you just need to know when to fight and when to steer clear
life is full of hope, for those who open their eyes wide enough to see them.

stay true to the person that you are, and not try to be someone that you aren't. then you'll go far in life, further than you ever dreamt you would.
believe in yourself. sometimes a little bit of confidence can do wonders.

you can do wonders for your own life, and for others as well. it depends only on whether you want to.

I'll remember this.

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1:23 AM

2:00 am..

I cant sleep..

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Friday, February 22, 2008, 10:41 PM

Today, Great day !

Went mac with Xiuhui, chatted and had dinner! :)) Enjoyed the dinner and the chat. Next time we'll walk slower, like > sloowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww =)
Take care of yourself tomorrow, drink lots of water. Tomorrow is a longggg day for you.

Saw Lihui, Kimhong, and friends too, hahas. Slackers !

Plans - drink coffee and mug.
Sat - SLP LATE LATE, Cut hair, Buy singtel prepaid card.
Sunday- Mug Social studies, Mug maths test, Mug phys/chem.

I know I'm naggy, but it's because I care :)

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3:18 PM

Cedric is sad again! People say human always will have regrets. I think, this is mine.. Listen to my story will you?

Once upon a time, there was a guy named Cedric !

With the Fun-loving Coach Edmund & Shooting buddies !

Together as a team, they represented Singapore for a Sydney Competition!

They were all kids, obviously didn't care about competitions! all they wanted to have is FUN!

more FUN !

and MOREEEEE FUN !!!

It was like a holiday to them!

They visited those places,

And acted like children!

Cheston taught Cedric how to enjoy life!

Of course, they went to the place where they will compete...

And let the granny examines their beloved suit !

Because she's too fussy, Singapore team manager was PISSED!

Yet so, she went on checking...

Cedric went to shoot...

And won something..

He won friendship,

He won the true spirit of sportsmanship.

And he won himself, true teammates !

Cheston taught Cedric how to say, Good Day Mate!
Cheston: Ced, say Good' Die' Mite ! :)

2007 Dec, Sydney. Last overseas competition Cedric went, representing Singapore.

-The End-

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Thursday, February 21, 2008, 7:08 PM

I like the muffin you made, I like your expression when you eat the salad !

Another wonderful day! =)

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Wednesday, February 20, 2008, 9:14 PM

went for breakfast with xiuhui at mac today, so cool luh. its empty like we owned that place !

2 filet-o-fish meals !

I really really....... =D

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Tuesday, February 19, 2008, 5:57 PM

God damn it.

someone teach me how to be a positive person.

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Monday, February 18, 2008, 9:09 PM

Monday -.-!
Loads of homework, Loads of test, Loads of nagging.
MrSu went back camp, the new Indian temporary teacher for Physics Rocks!

But,

It brightens my day to talk to you. And also I hope you won't mind. I'll definitely want to meet if I can make it. Sorry. How to bu chang you?((:

dian si wo !

*想想想 U ! :D*

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Sunday, February 17, 2008, 7:02 PM

Today - SUPER BORING !

Who will believe Cedric actually went over to Mingfeng's house to study? (:

I did 3 "WOW" things today.

I actually finished 3chinese compositions in 2hours.
I teach Angella accounts in Kfc.
I asked Angella for more infos on girl's thought, cause I really really want to improve my relationship with her and work hard towards being her ideal friend, or even more than that, NOT ANGELLA PLEASE ! ((:

---------

*I miss miss miss miss miss you crazily, don't ask me why...*

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Saturday, February 16, 2008, 6:41 PM

When can I stop being so childish and get jealous over the smallest things?

I detests myself more and more, I avoid talking about shooting and put the blame on the self-studies, but have I tried to go down even once?

I'm a coward, I don't even dare to challenge myself in shooting.

I give up at the slightest setbacks I met along the way.

I day-dream of being something big when I'm totally a nothing.

I laugh at people who make stupid mistakes in stages or performance, yet I don't even dare to go up and perform.

I tell people not to do something to me, yet I do it to them every time.

I'm boastful.

I'm full of craps.

I see older people always holding onto a knife preparing to stab me, when I'm the only one holding onto the gun.

I wear a mask and face people.

I Whine.

I fake to be a gentlemen.

I make myself look stupid to make people laugh.

I push blames other people I'm the one who created the problem.

I'm give excuses every time to get out of troubles.

I force things to go my way.

I don't always mean what I say.

I'm emotionally unstable.

I despise myself.

I tried to change for the better, I still can't convince myself to face other people using the real "me".

A recent Chinese Test .
There's this passage inside this test, about a performer wearing a mask in the day, to entertain the audience. He'll only remove the mask during night when his all alone in his room. After removing the mask, he'll realize that there's another "him" inside the room, so unfamiliar and almost like a stranger to him, yet that's the real and actual him.
After a long period of time, that performer finds it harder and harder to remove the mask. The real "him" started to hide from him, the mask sticks to his face for good after that...

As I read this passage and did my test yesterday after school, I started to realize I'm similar this performer. I can't treat other people truthfully, I'm afraid of going to unfamiliar places or meeting new friends, I'm so use to stay inside my comfort zone already.

Sorry dear blog, for complaining and venting my angers on you. But apart from her, you're the only source who'll listen to me..

I hope I can change and be a better person in the future.

*I really hope I'm not a substitute*
*I'm starting to like you lot u. =)*

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Friday, February 15, 2008, 5:18 PM

1month of slacking from trainings, feel so weird.
Yeah, I'm a loser. I'm a quitter. I'm whatever. I just hate going to training already.

I strive so hard to become a better shooter, train hard in my trainings, work together with Coach Goh. Thought shooting as everything in my life, neglected my studies just to train more.

2007, Personal Shooting peak.
-Represent Singapore in overseas competitions.
-Won medals
-Improve after chionging trainings.
-Made real good friends, Buddies.
-Fantastic 4 born after that movie -_- ( Yulin, Thyejie, Alex, Cedric )
-Shooting club's best results despite being only 2years old.

Coach Edmund Goh,
When I first enter Nyt, my basic sucks and I'm totally a nothing in shooting.
For the first 6months, it felt terrible to be the bottom out of all the Nyt shooters. The thought of quitting shooting became stronger and stronger, yet you never gave up on me. You encouraged me and focused on my basics. After 6months, I began to improve constantly and you're happy for me too. You're the one who gave me the confidence to believe that I can do it if I really put in the hard work. You'll scold me at times, but you'll let me know why I'm scolded after that and you even sacrificed your weekends to stay in range and coach me.
But I'm so sorry to give up at this moment, I've no time to train, I'm tired of constant competitions to improve my scores, I'm totally drained and unable to carry on.

To Fantastic Boss a.k.a Granny,
Very long never call you granny already, really miss squeezing your cheeks and teasing and jasmine. You guided me when I needed most help, you gave me tips and pointed out my mistakes. You didn't bother about my scores, you told me to enjoy shooting. My Inter-school national third, I fought hard for it, just to not let you down. I'm happy when I see that satisfied looks on your face as well as Coach's face.

To Fantastic 2nd boss, a.k.a Tj,
How long we've not slept in the same hotel room and watch the gay movie and saying I erected because of that movie -_-"? I miss the first time we went overseas as a team. Open the sardine inside the toilet and eating it inside the toilet LOL! Being late on the day of the competition, due to our party inside the room the previous night =)

Finally, to fantastic 3rd member, a.k.a Xela, Alex.
I miss playing bowling, crapping, bullshitting, fighting, quarreling with you. You always accompany me to Yishun safra for trainings, talk to me and help me even though i always niao you. Finally, you've proved your shooting standard already, I truly truly, from the bottom of my heart, wish you all the best for your future in shooting.

To Amanda, Aiting, Vanessa, Cheston, John, Jiaqi, Justin, Daniel, Abel, Singhui, Issac, Rachel, Junhong, Jonathan, Many many more.
Fate brought us together under Shooting team and gave us all special memories. Thanks for all the support you guys gave me all along, taking care of me and supporting me.

I'm happy training with you guys, Nyt made me a better person, molded my character and built my confidence.

But now, I'm prepared to enter another phase of my life. To work hard in studies. I've done my best in shooting already, since I can't afford to train or excel in shooting anymore, let the juniors replace me and I'll study hard.

I'm still trying my very best to get use to life without rifle trainings, Somehow my life seems to be missing an important piece.

----
Valentine's day,

Wow, we actually made friends through the girls guides thing.
thanks for accepting this friendship =)

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Saturday, October 6, 2007, 8:51 PM

I'm worried about my exams.
I have many many plans after exams.

I want holidays.
I want to train.
I want to train.
I want to train.
I want to train.
I want to train.
I want to train.
I want to train.
I want to train.
I want to train.

:D
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YuhuaSecSch.
All the efforts and hard work I've put in for you for the past three years, is totally wasted.

You stripped me of my awards, I don't mind.
You don't respect my choice, I don't mind.
You maligned me, I mind.

Just because I didn't help out in school events of being a stupid referee of a Frisbee game, You accused me of not
being there when the school needs me, being disloyal. But do you know what's the reason for me
choosing the championship's official than being a Frisbee referee? Because I believe I'll learn more being an official in
an International shooting competition than being a stupid referee in a Frisbee game.

"If I don't deserve the award despite all the things I've done for the school for the past 6months, let me ask
this question, Who deserves it ? You insulted me and made me feel really disgrace of saying I'm a student of this school."

I feel betrayed.

Punishment is a display of desperate measures to make students obey your rules,
Let me tell you, thru punishment, no one will respect you.

I love yuhua , 6 months ago.
6 months later, no more.

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Wednesday, September 5, 2007, 9:51 PM

The Bottom Line

After many new beginnings recently, you can expect a few terminations right now.

In Detail

After a busy period many new beginnings, your life is entering a period of many terminations right now. The good news is that nothing is going to be over that doesn't need to be over. The people who are good for you and represent a positive force in your life aren't going anywhere! Transitional periods like this can be very difficult, but you are blessed with an emotional intelligence that helps you see that things happen for a reason in life. This period will make you stronger.

Yea, I'm talking about horoscope again.

Sorry for today, I'm damn sorry, but I'm feeling better now. Thanks for talking to me f4. Junyang, Thanks for not asking why liddat, but giving me a pat on my shoulder.

Whats there to explain I've done wrong? By keeping silence is the best way of apologizing.

"Holycow"
" You don't have to fuck someone's dignity in front of everybody , because that doesn't make you a greater person. "

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Saturday, September 1, 2007, 3:22 PM

Damn it, I love horoscopes!

The Bottom Line

Want a deep relationship with someone you socialize with? Start a deep conversation.

In Detail

Today, you need to re-examine your relationships and identify the ones that are more about seeing and being seen than about a real connection between you and them. If you are itching for a deeper relationship to the people you socialize with, the only thing standing in your way is you. Don't be afraid to initiate conversations that are about more than fashion, music, pop culture or gossip. Have faith that these people are as deep as you are, and eager to grow your relationship.

-Are you thinking what i'm, thinking now (:?

* > " In order to move on, you'll need to let go " <

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Thursday, August 30, 2007, 7:04 PM

Now you know why I love horoscope so much . .

Horoscope for August 30, 2007

The Bottom Line

Be confident as today begins -- there's an awful lot of positive energy around you.

In Detail

Be confident as the day begins -- there's an awful lot of positive energy around you, and it's yours for the taking. Pump up your ego until it's the right size for you. The one you've been sporting lately is a bit too small. If you let your insecurities get the better of you, your emotions will be too easily aroused -- and you might get the reputation of being a bit moody. By putting up a wall that keeps out other people, you aren't protecting yourself. You're hiding who you really are.

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Wednesday, August 29, 2007, 5:59 PM

I don't want to say this, but all along i really trust my horoscope...
That was what I posted yesterday, This is my horoscope today..

August 29, 2007

The Bottom Line

Sometimes a good memory can be a curse -- try to let go of the past and move on.

In Detail

Sometimes a good memory can be a blessing, and sometimes it can be a curse -- like today, when a fading friendship makes you wistful for the way things used to be. On the other hand, there is a new acquaintance in your life, and you should feel happy that you have the time you need to build the relationship -- there is a lot of potential there, and you can sense it. People enter and exit your life, and sometimes exits are for the best. Do not think of ending a relationship as a failure.

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Tuesday, August 28, 2007, 7:22 PM

For the one who really tried so hard,
for the one who keeps on laughing even if its the end of the world,
for the one who promised happiness,

For now, I just hope that you're really happy.

"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I still, Love you.

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Monday, August 27, 2007, 2:04 AM

SEASA 2007 ! KL SUBANG (((((::

Alright! (: That ends it all !

You're so near, yet so far from me.
How I wish you were just one more step nearer me, at least I can still hear you breathing.

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Sunday, August 12, 2007, 1:03 PM

571, 11August NYT Monthly shoot.

Good series - 98 , I dare to pull that stick
Bad seres - 93 94, I doubted my position more than I actually think , I hesitated to pull that stick.

I have nothing , except the heart to improve.

Quote " happy shooting ah " (:(:

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Wednesday, August 8, 2007, 7:35 PM

Focus, Pride, Enjoy

-Will not let anything affect my mood now, nothing.

Been feeling great in recent trainings, my position elvoved from the past to another better and comfortable one, I feel better and more stable. The only con is, I'm still not use to it and tend to shoot bad in the middle part.

Saturday, I'm not going to go with you guys. Sorry. I can't face the fact that I'm being treated like a freak. It's no ones fault.

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Tuesday, August 7, 2007, 8:46 PM

Things this week - Monthly Shoot
- National Day
- Watch Jay's Movie
- Study Study Study
Alright! I just reach home from training and I'm training again tomorrow, take a rest then shoot monthly shoot. Busy week.

Preparation for Monthly Shoot,
Finally after a long drop after Nats compy, I've picked up finally. Now I'm physcoing myself everyday and mentally preparing for this competition this week. I want to maintain.
MAINTAIN MAINTAIN MAINTAIN MAINTAIN.
Been watching my diet, energy level and mentality strength.

I hope all my efforts will pay off.

- Focus, Pride, Enjoy.

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Saturday, July 28, 2007, 10:40 PM

National Training Team monthly shoot

Went to range early in the morning with Alex. Though I'm still not up to the standard of NTT shooters, I'll work hard and try my best. And seriously, I do envy them.
Yulin shot 591, shifu really done us proud. I'm glad that fantastic four have Yulin, Alex and Thyejie, cause you guys really shot well today in terms of your mentality. I'm the only one in the team still not in NTT, but wait for me! That'll be my motivation.

List of things I want to achieve in shooting :
* Seasa
* Singapore Open
* NTT

If there's a will, there's a way.

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Sunday, July 22, 2007, 1:58 AM

Mr Ho's Birthday Celebration !
Went to Mr Ho's birthday party, together with Shooting Club friends. I just reach home, its 2am currently (: I'm seriously surprised that my mother didn't wait for me in the living room or something, she went to sleep. But I'm gonna be so dead later in the morning when she wakes up.
She'll start to nag like hell again. nag nag nag nag nag naggggggg....

Why so late ?!
We missed the LAST TRAIN to Jurong by 30secs. All we need is 30 secs and all of us can reach home before twelve. We ran into the station hoping that we still can catch the train, SMRT staff started waving to us from the control station " NO NO DUN COME IN ". wtf. they really screw things up.
I had never felt so lost in my whole life like today, where you just stone and can't really think of any solutions. Only this sentence came out " Cedric you're so screwed "

How did we reach home ?
Luckily, one of the sec1 club's mate managed to call his father to drive us home in a lorry . 13people. Yelling and shouting like nobody business on the lorry. His father drop us one by one, and I'm the last 4th to reach home.

Later when Mum wakes up,
Amen. Cedric. God bless you.

- Enjoy your weekend dudes, remember to study too !

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Saturday, July 21, 2007, 12:13 AM

I truly believe in horoscopes.

Friendster Horoscope for July 21, 2007
The Bottom Line
Focus more on the issues that are going on around your home. Keep it peaceful.

In Detail
If your attention is being divided between your home life and your public life, the best choice is to focus more on the issues that are going on around your home. Why? Because your home is your refuge -- a safe foundation -- and you need to keep it that way. Everything from household squabbles to a broken faucet could be causing you stress right now, so attend to all of them and make sure that you can leave your home every day knowing that you will return to peace and calm.

I can't copy with so many things going in and out of my head today, I flared up so easily today.
I should have pull myself together and think straight before I go ding-dong. I just wish to shout " SHUT UP AND GIVE ME PEACE . " loud and clear. Alright peeps, I'm fine now after posting.

" swing swing till we fly "
-lets hope we'll develop something special out of this

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birthday pics

Thursday, July 19, 2007, 7:55 PM

Alex drew it (=

Happy 15th Birthday Cedric !

1 long candle, 5 short candles

Vanessa bought the cake, and she's so shy ! heehee =D

Birthday Kiss

Birthday Wish

Strawberry Birthday Cake

Candles out (=

Justin

Crazy Justin!

Dumb Justin =D

Justin and Me

Peeps with strong sense of responsibilities :P

Granny, Fantastic4

She's shy lar !

I not heavy meh ?! put me down !

Finally, group photo !

Thanks for the birthday Cake Vanessa, you didn't mind buying the cake for me, I'm super super touched.
Alex, sincere thanks for coming down Safra even after ending school late and the super nice birthday card you drew :D
Lihui, Thyejie, Yulin, Justin, thank you very much for buying me that present, it really means a lot to me.
Jose, thanks for celebrating my birthday with me even when you're quite busy with work.

It's my first birthday celebration in range with you guys and I'm really really happy (:

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Monday, July 16, 2007, 10:17 PM

I'll post during the weekends ! really sorry,

Tomorrow is my 15th birthday, hopes everything goes well for me in range.

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I've celebrated my birthday today, thanks to Vanessa, Thyejie, Yulin, Alex, Justin, Jose =)

I'll post the pictures once thyejie send me them ok :D

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Saturday, July 14, 2007, 11:25 PM

Problems & More Problems,
Its a long talk, Yulin, Alex, Thyejie and Lihui, I understand you guys are trying your best to stop me from running away from the problems that have always been bothering me. I can do what you guys wants me to do, but it takes two hands to clap. I know what to do exactly instead of running away , but just like what you have said, I'm afraid of failing. It's not like I didn't try it before.

Han,
I know you've regretted for what you had done. If it wasn't for my reaction, would you realize your mistake? I shouldn't deny you the chance of changing. But its the fact the you once betrayed me, and treated it like a joke. Don't expect me to talk to you like how we use to in the past,because there's this gap which we cannot deny , we'll have to rebuild it I guess.

Jian,
I don't know whether will you come to view my blog. But yesterday, I shouldn't have use those harsh words on you It was really a moment of anger. I really don't want you to be angry or sad. Sorry.

Finally,
The Cedric you see in range or outside range, is not the real Cedric. The one u saw is just one big actor. One who wore a mask in front of everybody. Because the real Cedric will turn people away, his attitude. He had to fake it because his real attitude can't survive in the society. I really want to climb out of the dirt pit and fight back. I'll continue to wear that mask, until one day I can take it down and be myself.

- so if you know it doesn't work, why don't you try to change it.

Sorry for giving troubles yet again, I'm feeling a lot better already. Thanks for listening! (:

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Friday, July 13, 2007, 11:38 PM

YAY! It's FRIDAY !

SEASA,
21st August will be going for Seasa , thats 40 more days away ! Its held in KL Subang, I think. Although there'll be 60plus people going, I'm sure this trip will bring even more fun, and build a stronger relationship between NT peeps. And of course not to forget, build an even more stronger bond between fantastic4. Seriously, I really hope that we can bunk in the same room again. Then you guys can hear my mourn in the middle of the night like there's no tomorrow.

If there's good friends in NationalTeam, then there'll certainly be bad ones. Some people just tries to act dumb and create trouble. I had enough, and if you think that I'm still that past Cedric, think again.

Scholarship,
I was told by my club teacher to write a of summary today , from the day we entered Nyt till today. Something to do with scholarship. I'm not given the detailed information yet but I'll post it once I know more about it alright.

I scalded my hand when I'm ironing my school uniform, and that really hurts.

Wishes For Seasa - Bunk with juicy fantastic 4
- *
- *
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Finally......
-I know you feel awkward every time someone mentions that , but I really hope those rumors wouldn't spoil our relationship, So Sorry !

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First post

Wednesday, July 11, 2007, 6:16 PM

Shooting,

Yulin, TJ and Alex, You guys helped me along the way, pointed out my mistakes and didn't look down on me even when I'm shooting lousily. Granny, I wouldn't have made it without you phys-coing me every time after training, TJ thanks for giving me the confidence by talking to me after my trainings and Alex, thanks for being a true friend who really wants me to change for the better, by pointing out my attitude problems.
Coach didn't give up on me when he could have done long time ago, he put in more effort in trying to make me realize my own mistakes and gave me many chances.

-Nobody will despise me, If I don't despise myself. Fantastic4, you guys will always be my best buddies

Attitude,

Alex was right, I'm starting to neglect the feelings of the people around me after the Nationals. How can I be so stupid to screw the month's of hard work I've put in before Nationals, just because I don't know how to be humble. I'll control my temper, watch my attitude and be humble in shooting. Just like before nationals, work hard work hard and work hard.

Conclusion :D

The reason for such a post today, is not because of the scores or anything else. I simply wanted to thank those people who dint give up on me, kept helping me and didn't care about the results.
A bunch of lovable juicy shooters, GRANNY , TJ AND Alek! (:

-Passion drives a shooter further than his original destination.

-Believe in yourself, then you'll be able to achieve your desired results.

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